Why are you terrified? Do you not yet have faith?

Back then, at the beginning of things,
we were all just too wide eyed with amazement
to really grasp what he was trying to teach us.

Now I would tell a younger me
that just because he was with you
did not mean that he would not deliberately
take your boat into seas
where a storm waited out of sight

And where I would have fled before
or looked for a way to calm the waves,
today a wiser me is content
to let him steer this ship
into the squall,
knowing that with him I will not perish.

If Today

You will be my shield, my rock, my refuge
–no need to harden my own heart
to hide in,
for there I only shrink in isolation, suffocating
until I press up against the walls holding me in.

It is You who can lead me out
by pathways unknown,
away from the worn and dusty roads I travel
again and again,
where I only find the desolate and deserted places,
the empty castles that I have built
stone upon stone.

But when my strength and hiding place is in you,
when your voice is the shield that surrounds me,
and you stop my hand from placing another stone
by grasping it in yours,
I can see clearly
enough to fight to follow You,
stopping the worst of myself
that keeps me from loving.

Epiphany

Burning like a flame,
oh star,
you lit up the earth,
pointing the way.
But you were just burning for God,
reflecting the radiance you saw
in a baby boy.

I too search for the spaces in the night
where I burn the brightest,
and I look to find the small and hidden glory.
The same hand guides my heart.

Oh star,
thick clouds and darkness —
but God has placed us here,
you and I, to shine.
So throb with beauty
and exalt with radiance
at the dawn
and the happiness and treasure of your heart.

For look, they come to see your light
and know it too.